For the past few years I have decided that instead of new year resolutions that I will probably not keep, I would choose a word, with God’s help, to stand as a banner over the year. This exercise has come up with some scary words and this year is no different.
In 2012 my word was Lean. Last year it was Listen. This year……
This, for me is the scariest word so far. Instinctively I knew exactly what God was getting at. I had a mental picture of a dog with something in its mouth and a hand holding it as well, with a voice that repeatedly said Let Go. When the dog didn’t let go the voice would become more emphatic, more loud, and more frustrated.
I get it.
These past few months I have been fighting the winter blues in a big way. When I think about it now, the closer we got to the hubs leaving for Russia, the darker things looked.
Worry. Fear. What if.
They all plagued me.
Last month I wrote that God wanted me to get my head on straight before Hubs left for Russia. Now He’s added another layer to that. “Let go Cheley. Give it all to me. I’ve got this. I’ve got him. I’ve got you. Everything’s going to be okay. But you have to Let Go.”
You see I’m the person who tends to fret and fume, to worry. I approach new situations, new people, new places with a healthy dose of “what if….”What if I fail. What if I get lost. What if I try and I’m not any good at it and I get laughed at, mocked. What if things go sideways in Russia. What if I have nothing to say.
Release it Chele.
1 Peter 5:7 (AMP)
Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully.
I get it. But it seems easier said than done.
I decided to look up my word in the dictionary. This is what I found
allow or enable to escape from confinement; set free.
|synonyms:||free, set free, let go/out, allow to leave, liberate, set at liberty;|
allow (something) to move, act, or flow freely.
Wait a minute. Did you read what I just read?? Did it just sound like if I let go or release things I too would be set at liberty??
Had to look at this some more, so out came my Bible and the first verse that came to mind was the one that has been constantly in my mind for the past few weeks:
Amplified Bible (AMP)
27 “Peace I leave with you; My [own] peace I now give and bequeath to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. [Stop allowing yourselves to be agitated and disturbed; and do not permit yourselves to be fearful and intimidated and cowardly and unsettled.]”
Then came this verse:
Amplified Bible (AMP)
19 “Behold, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs forth; do you not perceive and know it and will you not give heed to it? I will even make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.”
And this one:
The Message (MSG)
34 “Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.”
Each verse seemed to ram the point home.
Let Go. Peace will follow. Then there will be room to grow, room to stretch, room to receive, room for rivers to flow.
I’ve heard it said that you can’t receive anything if your hands are full. Makes sense don’t you think? The more we let go of stuff, the more room we have to receive.
It’s a big word. A big challenge. It all sounds so simple, yet can be so hard to do.
Okay. This is me…learning to let go.