A few days ago I was listening, as I do, to the Daily Audio Bible on my commute to work and on this particular day Brain Hardin did a small devotional type thing, which he does quite regularly, after the scripture reading.
I had a particular soft spot for that day’s scripture reading as it included Psalm 139 which was my late grandfather’s favourite passage. Not only did the scriptures read bless me but what was said as well. In fact it so spoke to me that I immediately wanted to share it with all of you. It took some time to transcribe it but I finally got it done.
This is what he said:
“Life has its seasons. We all wander into a patch of hardship or struggle or opposition from time to time. Some of those seasons are long and arid. And so, that may be you.You may be kind of in that right now.
And at times we’re tired out, worn out, worn down; we are susceptible to the voice of the Accuser who is always there saying, ‘God isn’t present to you for whatever reason.’ ‘You’re disqualified’, ‘It’s over for you’, ‘It’s too late’, ‘You know what you did’, ‘You know how you got here’, or ‘He just doesn’t care; whatever the story of the wounds of your life is or are.’
Then there’s the voice of accusation, that goes all the way back to Genesis Chapter 3, when there’s a serpent speaking to Adam and Eve saying, ‘The reality of what you think you know isn’t really all there is. God’s holding out from you.Keeping secrets from you. This fruit is your answer. Take things into your own hand . Eat this, you will know what God knows, you will know what He’s keeping from you, You will be like him, You won’t need Him. You’ll be your own god.’
If we listen to this voice long enough, subtly our posture of heart toward God is shifted and we’re asking questions like ‘Why?’ and ‘Where are you?’ So right here as we approach the centre of the year, we come across Psalm 139, which is like a direct rebuttal to that voice, and a direct response to that question.
So for those of us who are walking through that season of really, really trying to figure this out; ‘Where is God in all of the stuff that I am going through right now?’ Then I give you these words from God back to you from the Psalms:
‘I know when you sit down. I know when you get up. Even from far away I understand your motives. I observe you in your travel, when you lie down to rest. I’m aware of everything you do. You don’t even form a word without me knowing about it. I’m behind you. I’m in front of you. My hand is on you. And there is more going on than you know of. My knowledge is beyond what you can know. So where do you think you can go that you would escape my Spirit? Where would you flee to be out of my presence? If you come to heaven, I’m there. If you go down into the underworld in the sleep of death, I am there. If you were to fly away on the wings of the dawn, if you were to settle on the other side of the sea, even there my hand will guide you. I will grab hold of you. I know you’re saying that the darkness is covering you and that all of the light is turned to night inside of you; but even the darkness is not too dark for me to see. And the night is like daytime. Darkness and light are nothing to me. I made your mind, and I made your heart and I knitted you together inside your mother’s womb. I know everything about you, son. I know everything about you, sweetheart. I knew you when you were inside your mother’s womb. I’ve known you longer than you’ve even been aware that you existed. So don’t ask me where I am. I’m here. I haven’t left you. I’m waiting for you to come back. Return to me.'”